Adaptations

I have come to a better understanding of what I need in life. And the people I need around me. I adapt to changes in life well, but adaptations can move at a glacial pace for me. Sometimes it might take me three months to know that I care about someone deeply, but cannot be in a relationship with them. Coming to that conclusion has made me happy, and having that needed conversation has freed me. I am able to find who I need in my life.

Now, I want to go out and be sociable...

Happiness and Confusion and Fear and Excitement

Right now, my life is a huge jumble of emotions. Happiness and confusion and fear and excitement. Intellectually, I know what needs to happen, and what I need to do. Emotionally, I'm a bundle of jelly. Life is changing, and that scares the hell out of me. There are certain people in my life, who unexpectedly appear and change my whole thought process. I'm not really sure what's next, but it will come, and I will conquer that challenge.

Tiga "Shoes"

This has become my new favorite song, and video.

Wow.....Just Wow

This is a member of the Australian Parliament, talking on a local news program about an oil spill near his district. He would scare the hell of of me, but be hilarious about it!

Times are a Changin'

I've moved. I'm settling into my new place. I'm settling into my new life. And it feels good. The changes are starting, now I need to make them continue.

Movin' on Up

This is my last weekend at my present apartment. Last week living in Bridgeport. Next Monday, I'm moving up north of Madison Street. The North Side. Noble Square to be exact. I've been living in my present neighborhood since 2003. Have lived in several apartments in that time (all within a block radius actually). So this is kind of a large move for me. The area that I've called home for quite some time will no longer be where I rest my head. I'm excited and nervous. The difference in the neighborhoods could not be more different. This is what excites and scares me the most. Will I be able to swing this? Who will I meet? I don't want to move again for awhile!
I've known I need change in my life. This is the beginning of it. The time is right. Let's see what is next upon the horizon for me. Something will change, I'm not totally sure what though.

Moodiness

I need to communicate when I get pissed off. I need to learn how to do that. When I'm not getting enough attention paid to me, I need to learn to say something. I hold too much in. I need to let go, release my emotions. There's so much there, I can't hold it all in all of the time.

Hypernova

This band is rocking my world right now. From Tehran originally, where apparently you can get flogged for playing rock music. Now based in NYC. Good stuff. Reminds me a bit of a mixture of Interpol and the Editors. With the voice of the lead singer of Eisbrecher. I hope they play Chicago soon. I want to see them live!

CTA

The Chicago Transit Authority is an interesting way to get around Chicago. You see so many different things happening on the trains and buses. Life goes on, and unless it is violent, you just have to laugh sometimes. As crazy as the CTA can be, I wouldn't have it any other way.
I've had some of the best conversations of my life from the randoms I've met on the CTA. I've almost gotten into fights on the CTA. I've just watched life go by. It's a great story that needs to be told. In time I will. I didn't see this argument, but it does not seem weird to me.

Old Friends, New Life

I've been re-connecting with a lot of old friends recently. For me, apparently this is what Facebook is for. There's one specific person that I lost contact with that I've reconnected with. My friend Ed. Back in the Dartmouth days, when I lived in Panarchy, we would have our quarterly rave parties (this was the late 90's and all). He was friends with a friend of mine, and came up to play live sets. He was one of those people that when you meet, you know instantly that you're going to be a real friend to. Eventually, I graduated Dartmouth, and moved back to the Midwest. Lost contact. He ended up moving to Montreal, and I moved to Chicago.
I signed up for Facebook back in March, because I wanted to reconnect with old friends. The ones that I thought of quickly, and the ones that I always thought about, but didn't know enough information to find them (like a last name....I'm horrible with names, and am lucky to remember a first name....last names are far worse). Lo and behold, Ed requests me as a friend. At first, I had the reaction of "who the hell is Ed T?" (last names will be redacted). Got in the shower, doing my normal morning routine. While I was washing my hair, the light bulb clicked on in my head and I screamed out, "Holy shit, it's Ed?" "How did he read my mind? I've been thinking about him lately, wondering what he was up to."
It's funny that I can think of someone, missing the conversations, the fun times, the deep thoughts, and lately, that person has been finding me on Facebook. I look forward to reconnecting with people from my past, as I have not kept up with them as I should have. But it makes it all the more rich to connect with them now.

The Revolution Has Not Ended

A month later, still the nightly chants continue.

Vive la République! Vive la France!

I've always admired the beginnings of the French Revolution. Storming a major prison, overthrowing a hated monarchy, and eventually establishing a parlimentary democracy (after the Reign of Terror, Napoleon, another Napoleon, the restoration of the monarchy twice, plus the defeat by the Germans who then established the German Empire in Versailles).

The French of course got the idea after the American Revolution, but they were the first in Europe to overthrow the Ancien Régime.

Things that Annoy Me

Why is it when a celebrity dies, that all of this country goes into a tizzy, yet when world events happen, that are far more important, that just gets ignored.